Not been online for a bit. sorry to anyone who may have missed me...haha.

Nothing much to tell really. My Nan died on Friday but its for the best and im ok.  She was one of my best friends and im gonna miss her loads but its fine.

Dont feel like ive started back at uni yet cos everything has been so confused over the ast two weeks.  I cant wait til ive graduated and i can get my life on track a bit more.

Anyway, Im at Subway tonight so Ill see you around.  Ta for the nice messages and texts folk have sent.
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I hate feeling disappointed.
Missing someone is horrible.

I feel really down all of a sudden. I dont know...I'm on the verge of tears but im at my mums so i dont wanna start crying. It's probably just pmt or something but i feel really sad. Worrying about money and my lack of motivation for uni. I've got a 3000 word essay due in a month on top of a presentation and my regular week to week work. I cant get started on it. I'm just not bothered enough and i'm worried im gonna fuck up in a huge way. I really need a job too. Meh...maybe i should just have a cry and get the emo-ness out. What to do...?
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Folk should be made to walk around wearing lie detectors - aye, thats right. Ones that give an electric shock every time they lie. That'd teach them to stop being fucks. Lying bastards.

Im gonna be an injured alice in wonderland...or even a dead one! I was gonna do evil alice but I decided on a blonde wig instead of black. Black Alice dress, white apron, black and white socks and cuts and bruises like she fell down the rabbit hole a bit too hard!
I get piccies to show you after!
Weeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE packing, urgh!! It's been years since I last moved house and I can't believe how much shit I have...but I don't want to throw any of it away, cos it's all stuff with "sentimental value". Bah, I also have way too many books and cds, but I ain't getting rid of any of that!!! I can't wait til this weekend is over and I'm all moved and settled. Roll on next Monday :\
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I don't usually eat breakfast so remind me not to ever again. Especially not those "Fitnesse" flake things. Vanilla-y cardboard rubbish.
I feel sick :(

I'm officially terrified of my Uni course after today. It sounds hardcore :(
I have to:

1. Take two different physical classes a week, outside of classtime, i.e, Dance and Yoga/Martial art/swimming type stuff

2. See about a million different plays, exhibitions blah blah blah

3. Make it to Uni for classes obviously

4. Keep a critical diary of everything I do in class and outside class as relevant to my course

5. Read and write essays for the numerous other modules on my course

All this AND have friends, get a job etc etc. I'm going to DIE!!!
The thing is, I've been offered a room at my mates flat with her and her boyfriend. Which would be cool. But I need to get a part-time job to pay for it, not to mention these bloody classes and plays I'm gonna have to pay for...the student loan DOESN'T stretch to all these things!!! It's just as well most of my classes are in Leith so I don't have to travel much or that would be another thing to worry about.

Goodbye everyone. If you need me, I'll either be in Uni/looking for a job/seeing a play or exhibition/in the uni library studying/taking a bloody dance class/sleeping or possibly dead from stress and exhaustion. It's been nice being friends with you all - see you next summer!!! *sob*

Are all you need really. At least, I've discovered who a couple of them actually are. When you're sorting horrible stuff out and everything just seems a nightmare, it's nice to know that they're there to take the piss and make me realise how stupid I am sometimes.
I really didn't want things to end up the way they have, but I'm trying to sort through it all. It's still a mess, but I know that I DO have some good mates and they've made themselves known over the past few days. I'm sorry I didn't realise who you were before.
And I'll stop being pissed off and emo-princessy now :p 'Cos there's no point. And 'cos its annoying.
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Urgh!! I really wanna move out. But its soo expensive :(
I need to find flatmates and an affordable flat. Luckily, I don't pay council tax cos I'm a student :p
Anyway, if anyone is interested or knows anyone who is, or who needs a flatmate, let me know. Obviously Edinburgh area is kinda necessary cos thats where I go to Uni.
I need out of here!!!!!!!

Why don't people just say what they actually mean or are thinking, instead of all the other rubbish that they do?

I've been guilty of exactly the same thing in the past. But it seems stupid. It just gets frustrating, everyone steps around things instead of just saying things outright and getting things sorted out.

You probably think I'm having a breakdown or something. I'm not :)

Here's a little challenge though. How about telling the truth for once, as brutal as it may be? Kinda makes things easier to sort out